fuck this blog.

flying high
school is definitely different here. 10 times more demanding and 10 times more work. but i love it! i'm here doing what i want to do and it's making me feel so happy to have this opportunity. i'm so lucky.

my classes are going good. i have to do this font study in typography. i was kinda like...that's what compter's are for!! haha. nah, it's fun. and for computer studio class, we had to recreate an ipod in illustrator. i would say it turned out alright considering i've never used the gradient mesh tool is illustrator before.

everything is going really good with james. i'm really starting to care a lot about him. but the thing is, he's no longer going to miad. he decided to not go to miad and work instead. i can understand how being at 24 you wouldn't want to start colledge again and spend that much money on something you're not sure about. so he won't be going to miad but will still be in milwaukee. which is nice. it's good too cuz then i can focus on school more and keep my head straight. i get distracted easily.

well i need to go shower and find some lunch. something cheap hopefully as i'm running low on the money. haha. wish i could have kao soy. hmmmmmmmmm.

well today was the first day of classes, and i'm already kinda exhausted. i'm still sitting here waiting for my next class to start at 6.50. my schedule kinda sucks, i need to see if i can move stuff around. here's how it goes.

Monday+Wednesday
2.00-3.20 introduction to college writing
6.50-9.40 communication design I
Tuesday+Thursday
8.00-10.50 typography
6.50-9.40 computer studio I
Friday
8.00-3.30 figure drawing
3.40-6.30 introduction to woodshop (only for 5 weeks)

it just sucks that i have night classes. and on tuesdays and thursdays i have an empty day basically. but i'd rather have evenings off. sigh.

but... on a brighter note. i met this guy. ;) his name is james and he is super sweet and hot and nice and has been to thailand and loves it. so we've been on a couple of dates, kinda nice. hee hee.

summing up. life is going good. getting used to things here. finding and making new friends. :)

culture shock? maybe a bit
well, all i can say is that america, very different and interesting. culture shock....maybe a bit. it's all very open about the sex stuff. there's already a dorm slut, she's been here for a week and has already been with 3 guys!! i dont think anyone here is a virgin. i'm serious. plus guys are just like "hey you wanna come to my room?" and girls go, even though they've just met them like 10 mins ago. well, i guess it could have to do with the fact that they're freshmans (cuz right now the dorm is full of just freshmans, older kids haven't got here yet). and as freshmans just getting out of high school, sex, drugs, rock n roll, hot guys, being popular is still fresh in their minds. so it's basically all people here do. they worry about their reputation and are trying to create a new image. but yea, i got kinda freaked out about a bit about how people were. molly and i had a nice looong chat last night. hopefully the sophomores and older kids have already gotten all that shit out of their system. but yea, even our opening dorm speech was basically about sex, drugs and rock n roll. and kristen (the dorm leader) went straight to the point about it, no beating around the bush. basically she said (in the order of sex, drugs, and rock n roll) :

" sex: no babies. we don't want babies. no banging, their loft beds, they make a lot of noise. it's not that good for the rest of us! there are codoms in the main room, sorry, no flavored ones that i'm sure you guys are used to. drugs: do it else where. if we don't know about it, then it's not our business. if its in the dorms, there will be consequences. rock n roll: no drinkin in the dorms. if you come home drunk, don't puke on the floor, it'snot cool, and it smells bad. and as you realize, we have loft beds, meaning if you can't climb up, just sleep on the floor. we had a guy break his nose last year. so just be adults"

that speech basically just blew me away. well it was like 10 times longer than that. but that was the basic gist of it.

so yea, i'm really starting to miss my life in thailand. the people there are just way more sincere and well, polite and courteous and than those here. people here are very good at playing the 2 faced hypocrite that they are. i miss all you guys. and i don't know what i would do if molly wasn't here to look after me as my big sis.

pics

moi

corvette at flea market

milwaukee art museum

blown glass sculpture

more pics and more text later, too dam tired

more pics
well, i just finished moving into my new dorm room. it looks pretty wicked (will post pics with next blog). took us a long time to get all our shit set up and we cleaned the room head to toe. wonder how long it will stay that way. haha. but i went to target again and bought more shit for my dorm, not a surprise. got some nice stuff, cheap stuff. molly and i got this full length mirror which was like $5 and a $2 trash can. so the cheapest of things we could find.
well here are more pics.

this is the milwaukee river, it runs right next to the dorm.

molly and i at this restaraunt which we will not go again cuz it cost a bundle!!

me, molly and thui waiting for the bus on the way back from target. Note: we had 2 times more bags than that shown in the pic...and we had also gone the day before. yikes!!!

well, gtg to bed, fucking tired.

away from home
being here, i feel so free. it must be something in the air and the sunshine (well...while the sunshine lasts that is cuz this winter, we're expecting 12-15in of snow)(yikes). i find it so easy just to go around and say hi to people. i must have had about 20 conversations with complete strangers that i've met so far. this one lady the other day was walking her very very cute golden retriever named sam, and after petting him, i got to talk to her. turns out she's been to chiang mai many times and loves it there. well, who wouldn't.

people are constantly being surprised at the fact that i'm not from here. they just can't believe that i'm thai. i wondered how it happened though that my english is really good. haha. not that i'm praising myself, but i find that it's so weird how i've never lived in the states or anywhere else except thailand that i've become so...well american in a way. i don't know if that's something i should be proud of. i feel as if in a way..i'm letting my "thai" self down. i guess in a way i want to be more thai. i mean, am i really a bad "thai"?

there's so much junk food here. i mean, i want to save cash, but the only cheap food is junk food!! i'm already craving thai food, and i've been here what, a week. haha. at least i'm only eating one meal a day. i find that food is too expensive to eat a lot of. haha.

well, i miss you guys who i've left. wish you were all here. in a way when i said good bye to you guys, i kinda didn't realize how long 9 months really is...because it is long. miss you lots.

I'M LOVIN' IT!!!
I finally made it!!! I'm here in Milwaukee, WI and it is so awesome~!! I got here on Saturday mornin and although i was tired from the lack of sleep from the immensly looooong trip from THAILAND, i was still able to express much enthusiasm when i landed.

i dunno why, but when i saw molly and kk, i hugged molly and just started crying!!! i guess it was the lack of sleep but i was also just really happy to be here.

the city is beautiful!! so clean, the air so fresh, and right on lake michigan, which i found out, is so big that it is like THE OCEAN!! i'm living by the beach!!!! the buildings here are so pretty. most of them under the protection of the Historic Ward, so the buildings are old and give the city so much character. the dorm isn't bad. i'm really looking forward to getting to my new room so taht i can start decorating and just getting really settled in. i've decided to room with molly. i think that i would rather have a roommate whom i already know that i can get along with, rather than risk the chance of getting someone whom i would want to kill. plus, molly rocks and i love her and we get along really well, so that's that.

i got here on saturday and molly, kk, and earth took me down to the lake front. people were rollerblading, sunbathing, swimming, playing vollyball, and doing all kinds of stuff. i just hung out on the beach, the sand so soft and cool. then we went off to play tennis for awhile. there's a nice tennis court down by the lakefront that is free and there were hot guys playing. haha.

i went to target on sunday, that was really fun!! but when isn't shopping fun right? i got the nescessities, and also some extra for moi. TARGET ROCKS!! but everything really is expensive, and i would say that Target has some good stuff for cheap. but it didn't prevent me from being blown away at the bill. i spent $80!!!

the school is great. there are like 7 computer labs, and all MAC!! plus they just got the new G5s, so its like SUPER SWEET!!! The equipment and facilities is really really good. the photography section is composed of like 5 black rooms and all the other rooms you need. theres an amazing woodshop that is totally safe and fulll of awesome equipment that will allow you to do anything.

i was introduced to some of the administration people i would have to get things done with, and the one thing they couldn't believe was the fact that I wasn't american and that this was only my second time in the states. i also met the guy who was in charge of the scholarsip commity, who was one of the people who gave me the scholarship. BIG thanks to that guy (forgot his name......ooops)

its also so easy to just talk to people on the street. there was this lady yesterday who was walking a big golden lab down the road yesterday, i was outside having a smoke, and ijust asked if i could pet the dog. the dog's name was Sam...forgot what the lady's was. but yea, i got into a nice conversation with this woman and turns out she's been to chiang mai many times and loves it there.

here are some pics for now, i've been too tired to put more than this. but i will as soon as i'm over my jet lag.

where are the voices inside my head?
why is today so slow!!! my happiness and energy is running out! i'm serious that bangkok really does this to you. no wonder all bangkokians have a beach house because they can't wait to get away. i've only been here 2 weeks and iw ant to leave!!

i wonder why i didn't feel it this much before. but i realize now that i was never truly truly myself when i was here for 9 months. i knkow that i could have been happier, but there was no way of achieveing that. no wonder all my blogs that i've written during my time in bkk are so depressing.

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